if i was a robot

School was okay.
It was actually really dull, so it wasn't okay. It was suffocatingly boring.

And guess what? I don't feel like myself anymore. I don't know why. It all started this week, so that's why I can't wait for this week to be over. Next week will be a nice, fresh start. I'll feel back to normal. :)
My brother and I had to go to our little sister's school after our school ended, but we were 30+ minutes late since the bus didn't let us on...so we had to walk all the way to her school. Then when we were practically there, a bus zoomed by us that was COMPLETELY empty.
I swear, life enjoys playing practical jokes on us all.
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2 years ago I met him. I can remember the moment when I really took notice of him because we were sort of in the same situation? I don't know...I don't feel like explaining it.
I thought he was pretty cute, and he turned out to be kind of funny. Then later I thought he had turned into a douche bag, and I thought of him as a douche bag for a long time.
And now? Well now that I've started taking notice of him again since we actually have classes together, I've realized that he's still pretty cute...and that he's not that much of a douche bag.
Gawd, WHAT'S WRONG WITH ME?! I don't like thinking about guys---but his eyes are just so...?!?! Haha. -.-

So basically, I love my friends.
What would I do without them?

I really appreciate Gecko being there for me today. <3
She picked up on the fact that I was down and slightly out of it when no one else did. She didn't say anything, but I knew that she knew...and that in itself instantly made me feel better.
Plus, I did some "gossiping" about Junior Prom and guys with a friend. Mindless, girly talk really helps sometimes. :)
My friend really wants to go to Junior Prom, but since we're Freshmen, she can't go unless a Junior asks her to it...so she's devising some sort of plan to get in?! I don't even know.
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Did you wear green today?

Hopefully none of you guys got pinched! Happy St. Patrick's Day!

I still got pinched even though I was wearing a green jacket. Of course Ai was the one who pinched me---3 times in fact. All of them were those tiny pinches that sting like heck.

In gym today, my class had to take a push-ups test. Girls had to be able to do at least 7 push-ups in order to pass. Guys had to do 14.
It was just awkward.
My teacher had it set up so badly!
Basically, 3 people at a time would take the test while the rest of the class just sat behind them and watched them do their push-ups. The first 3 people to do the test looked mortified that they had to do the push-ups in front of everyone else, haha. A couple people complained, but my teacher ignored them.

Oh well, it wasn't that bad...but when it was my turn to take the test, my arms just turned to jello, and I was really nervous all of a sudden. I knew I could pass the test, but everyone watching just sort of added this unnecessary pressure. I was shaking the whole time I was doing my push-ups out of anxiety. -.-
At least I passed though! ;)
After I took the test, I still felt a little jittery for no particular reason, but I could at least relax. I'm glad I got to take the test early on so that I could just get it over with. Gecko did 27 or 29 push-ups. She's so buff! Haha. I did 10. Pfffttt, I suck. I copped out though (as my teacher would say). When I reached 10 I was thinking, "Fuck this. I passed. I'm done." I think I could've done more, but I didn't want to continue doing my wobbly push-ups anymore. :P
Before art class, Stilts and I had 20 minutes of free time, so we just hung out in the art room. She was worried about passing the push-ups test, so she practiced her push-ups at the back of the room like the weirdo she is. Our art teacher walked by and said, "Whatcha doing?", and Stilts just looked at her awkwardly and said, "Practicing my push-ups." Then the teacher said, "That's good!" And she really meant it. Meanwhile, the 5 or so people in the room just stared at us.
Haha, Stilts <3
One of the nicest, funniest, craziest people you'll ever meet.

(updated)
Yay, I got the pictures from Jojo! Haha.
How 3/13/10 went:
My mom sent Hammy and me to Jojo's house. We got there at around, I dunno, 10:15 am? We were aiming for 10 am, but close enough---especially considering that I'm not a punctual person at all. I like leaving as late as possible for things. Ahhh, habit that I need to break.
The day before I had gone to Blockbuster and got Edward Scissorhands, which (once again) I wanted to watch desperately. But honestly, how could this movie not catch your attention:

So we watched Edward Scissorhands right away while eating junk food. I brought candy and Hamtaro brought donuts. Yay for donuts.
I really like this movie. It's good and intriguing, and I would recommend it to anyone who hasn't seen it yet. :D The ending left me a little unsatisfied though (ew, that's what she said?), but sometimes unsatisfying endings are the most satisfying endings possible. If everything in a story works out perfectly/happily for a character, it makes you want to barf rainbows and unicorns. Of course my un-satisfaction with the ending has nothing to do with how good the movie is and is just a personal opinion, but if you want to know why I wasn't satisfied with it, skip to the end of this entry.
After the movie we went outside and walked to a park nearby to camwhore and take random pictures.

We saw this beautiful tree while there :)

Picked dandelions on the walk back.

Ruined them in the process. Sorry.

After we got back to Jojo's house, we were like, "OMG, what do we do for lunch." We took the bus and went to QUICKLYS.
I got bubble milk tea with small tapioca and a wrap to eat. The tapioca was really soft and squishy, but not exactly in a good way. It just fell apart in my mouth and kind of dissolved. Oh well, still pretty good. The wrap had ham, cheese, lettuce, and ranch I believe. Not bad, haha. My first time ordering food at a Quicklys! I guess I have to say that I'm pretty impressed since Quicklys isn't exactly a restaurant, and it didn't take that long to get my wrap. Plus there's only 1-2 people working at Quicklys at a time. I heard a microwave though. *suspicious*
We took the bus back to Jojo's house, Hammy's mom came and sent me home, and that was how 3/13/10 was spent.
I had a lot of fun. :D I wish I could hang out with Hammy and Jojo more. :( We should do that again sometime, and the next movie we watch should be a horrible movie so we can point and laugh at it.
Spoiler alert. I guess the ending was a happy one for Edward since he got to experience the world outside of his inventor's home and also discovered love (which is a very big thing)...but it was sad how everyone in the neighborhood just turned on him, and it was sad that Kim never visited Edward ever again. Plus, I'm assuming that Kim moved on from Edward and found a new guy (because she has a frick'n granddaughter) which makes me just a little annoyed. I know I shouldn't be since I can't expect anyone in a situation like Kim's to remain single for the rest of their life, but I feel annoyed for Edward's sake...She was the only girl he was interested, but she's been interested in more than one guy, so it's like, he was such a special person, but the fact that she moved on and continued liking other people makes him seem average and dispensable. Grrr...but Kim did seem to still love him at the end of the film. Edward still seemed to love her too. *sigh* How romantic, haha. End of spoiler-filled content.
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I really want to blog about today, but I'm waiting for Jojo to send me the pictures that we took. It's been awhile since I've actually used pictures of my own (well technically they'd be her pictures and not mine, but whatever).
I can't upload pictures from my phone to the computer anymore for some weird reason. :(
I guess I just have to bug Jojo until she finally uploads and sends the pics to me, but I have to wait till tomorrow because she's OFFLINE. -.-
Hopefully I'll have the images by tomorrow! If I do get them, I'll be updating this blog entry tomorrow. :)

Sometimes I feel like the sky's too beautiful for this world.

Whenever I look up in the sky, no matter what time, it just always feels so surreal...everyone in the world is able to access such beauty---wherever and whenever.
It never gets old; staring up at the sky.
Different times and different places paint the sky with different hues, and all you see are colors, colors, colors...

I really want a spot. My spot. A place where I can just sit or lie down and stare at the sky while listening to my iPod...where I can get away from the everything.
But then again, I think having my own spot would make it more difficult for me to deal with the "real world".

• It's Friday
• Art class = extra bonding time with Stilts and Mawr
• Keyew and I survived our math test
• Lunch was funny as usual...(I swear, Ai is flirting with Stilts waaaay too much. I thought he liked someone else. Tsk tsk, that player.)
• Didn't see insert name
• I got to exercise with Gecko and Ai in gym, ahaha ;)
• It rained. I went to English completely soaked, but it was fun.
• The rain subdued to a very light drizzle by the time I had to walk home, so no drowning for me.
• I found a new snack to buy from the vending machine that's salty and savory

I have to go pick up my sister, so Ill stop right here. I might update this entry later though. :)
Sorry if the voice in your head was shouting while reading that. The current blog layout I have capitalizes everything that's in a colored font I guess.

Today was a half day, and so is tomorrow.
*high fives Bob*
I get to sleep in tomorrow since school doesn't start until 11. :D
My life's so boring. I don't really do anything anymore...I wake up, go to school, come straight home, do homework, go online, and go to sleep. How exciting.
BUT, this weekend I have a plan.

I don't know if you're reading this Hamtaro, but my plan is for us to go to Jojo's house (like we had in mind before). AND, we will bring snacks and a movie. The movie will be Edward Scissorhands preferably. This plan must will work out. :)
*sigh*
I remember the days of middle school...when school and homework didn't wreck my social life.

I saw this phone at RadioShack yesterday...

...and I've semi- fallen in love with it.

It's just so beautiful and sleek. *drools*
My dad doesn't want me to go with the Samsung a777 that our phone plan offered since he says it's a downgrade from my current phone, but he still wants me to get a new phone. I don't really mind what phone I get, but since he's offering and actually pushing towards me getting a new blackberry, I want to get that glorious phone up there. :D
I don't think it'll work out though. Not if we're buying a phone from RadioShack at least since we already have a phone plan.
If you want to buy a blackberry from RadioShack without purchasing a phone plan from them as well, it's going to cost around $300 + tax when the phone alone is just $20-$50. I guess I can see why RadioShack doesn't sell phones by itself or separate from any phone plans without charging extra, but I think it's lame.
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Today was pretty good. :D
My brain is all confused though, and my mind is thinking stupid thoughts. I think I have a fever right now, and I'm pretty sure I brought it upon myself.
So. Tell me. How have you been?
Anything new or fascinating in your life that you're dying to share? ;)
I guess I'm not expecting any replies, but once again, anyone who responds gets some cookies. This time I will also throw in some milk.
Yay, haha.

"Everything is beautiful and no one is happy."
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Today I was just...out of it? PMSy?

I felt happy and sad all throughout school. I guess when I was with my friends, I was happy. They get my mind off of lots of things, and lately I've been wanting to spend as much time with them as possible (when before I wanted some space)...but when I'm by myself or just sitting there during class, that's when my mind wanders. I slip into a daydream or think my "deep" and dark thoughts. I guess my deep, dark thoughts don't exactly make me sad...they just get my mind working and take me to a place that's more on the negative side.
I think a lot during passing period, when everyone's walking to their next class. I probably have my eyebrows slightly furrowed most the time. This is why it's so hard for me to look smiley and bubbly. I really want to be that kid that smiles 24/7, but I just can't.
Daydreams. They're my escape when it comes to boring teachers and boring lectures. I daydream more and more these days. I wonder if I should be worried, haha.

Right now I'm working on a "perfect" love story. Is it wrong that something about heartbreak just appeals to me? Hmm...well I like having heartbreak in my daydreams. Everything works out in the end though. ;) Right now I have a plot/story/whatever that I like. I kind of want to type it out.
I used to write stories all the time. Most of them ended up being incomplete though since I lacked a good plot. I liked writing stories in a medieval time setting. What a weird kid I was.
I'm feeling inspiration, so I might start once I get all my homework done...which might be never.
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It randomly started to hail today. That's what made me think of that quote...because I was feeling slightly sad, and then hail just started peppering down with rain streaking along the windows. And I started smiling, thinking that everything was so beautiful at that moment, and there I was just being stupid and sad.
So smile. It's your best accessory.
(Damn that was cheesy.)