"Everything is beautiful and no one is happy."
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Today I was just...out of it? PMSy?
I felt happy and sad all throughout school. I guess when I was with my friends, I was happy. They get my mind off of lots of things, and lately I've been wanting to spend as much time with them as possible (when before I wanted some space)...but when I'm by myself or just sitting there during class, that's when my mind wanders. I slip into a daydream or think my "deep" and dark thoughts. I guess my deep, dark thoughts don't exactly make me sad...they just get my mind working and take me to a place that's more on the negative side.
I think a lot during passing period, when everyone's walking to their next class. I probably have my eyebrows slightly furrowed most the time. This is why it's so hard for me to look smiley and bubbly. I really want to be that kid that smiles 24/7, but I just can't.
Daydreams. They're my escape when it comes to boring teachers and boring lectures. I daydream more and more these days. I wonder if I should be worried, haha.
Right now I'm working on a "perfect" love story. Is it wrong that something about heartbreak just appeals to me? Hmm...well I like having heartbreak in my daydreams. Everything works out in the end though. ;) Right now I have a plot/story/whatever that I like. I kind of want to type it out.
I used to write stories all the time. Most of them ended up being incomplete though since I lacked a good plot. I liked writing stories in a medieval time setting. What a weird kid I was.
I'm feeling inspiration, so I might start once I get all my homework done...which might be never.
***
It randomly started to hail today. That's what made me think of that quote...because I was feeling slightly sad, and then hail just started peppering down with rain streaking along the windows. And I started smiling, thinking that everything was so beautiful at that moment, and there I was just being stupid and sad.
So smile. It's your best accessory.
(Damn that was cheesy.)
***
Today I was just...out of it? PMSy?
I felt happy and sad all throughout school. I guess when I was with my friends, I was happy. They get my mind off of lots of things, and lately I've been wanting to spend as much time with them as possible (when before I wanted some space)...but when I'm by myself or just sitting there during class, that's when my mind wanders. I slip into a daydream or think my "deep" and dark thoughts. I guess my deep, dark thoughts don't exactly make me sad...they just get my mind working and take me to a place that's more on the negative side.
I think a lot during passing period, when everyone's walking to their next class. I probably have my eyebrows slightly furrowed most the time. This is why it's so hard for me to look smiley and bubbly. I really want to be that kid that smiles 24/7, but I just can't.
Daydreams. They're my escape when it comes to boring teachers and boring lectures. I daydream more and more these days. I wonder if I should be worried, haha.
Right now I'm working on a "perfect" love story. Is it wrong that something about heartbreak just appeals to me? Hmm...well I like having heartbreak in my daydreams. Everything works out in the end though. ;) Right now I have a plot/story/whatever that I like. I kind of want to type it out.
I used to write stories all the time. Most of them ended up being incomplete though since I lacked a good plot. I liked writing stories in a medieval time setting. What a weird kid I was.
I'm feeling inspiration, so I might start once I get all my homework done...which might be never.
***
It randomly started to hail today. That's what made me think of that quote...because I was feeling slightly sad, and then hail just started peppering down with rain streaking along the windows. And I started smiling, thinking that everything was so beautiful at that moment, and there I was just being stupid and sad.
So smile. It's your best accessory.
(Damn that was cheesy.)
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